(Training notes #1)
By the lunch time on week 1, I was in tears thinking about how this idea explains so many “symptoms” I have seen in the last 20 years.
Think about our combat veterans. Every single incident encountered during the combat, no matter it was about being ambushed, being shot, seeing someone getting shot, or even in the chow hall waiting to get the meal, those are “life-threatening” trigger. What does that mean? It means that their physical body are aroused and it starts to trigger the cognition, emotions, physical reactions, but…….. there is no “coming down” from that arousal because the “threat” is constant and continuous for another 6 months, 9 months a year, or even longer.
So, if there is no “comfort” or “coming down” from these physical arousal or explanations to process the cognition and emotions, these “experiences” become a chain of memories categorized all together.
And, you wonder whey they come home feeling “hypervigillence.” Not only that, you wondered why “it has been years, why are you still feeling this way?” Our brain and body do not differentiate the differences of the “threat.” When the brain gets aroused, it gets aroused. It is the “after thoughts” help us differentiate the “cause” of the trigger.
This is the same as children growing up in the neglect and/or abusive home. There was no one there to explain to them their “reality” was not “real” and it is really not their fault that the adult was abusive. As they continued to rely on the adults to provide shelter and protection, it is more likely they chose to believe the caregivers can’t do no wrong and they are the one who are “wrong” to cause the abuse from the caregiver.
So, why is this simple understanding brought me tears?
(to be continued)