[Anxiety] Everything Works out in the End

Last Saturday (7/17) was a usual morning. I turned on my laptop to check if there were any important messages before I went for a quick run. To my surprise, the monitor of my MacBook covered with lines that caused me not able to log in. I immediately went into a panic mode. After turning the machine on and off for several times, I knew it was hopeless. So, I started to search the Apple support website and YouTube via my phone. After checking different videos for about 30 minutes, I decided the only way to solve this was to bring the machine to the Apple Store. TODAY!!!!!!
At this moment, I can feel myself lose all the will power to go for a run. I sat there and thought to myself: “What can I do? There is nothing I can do to fix my MacBook at this moment.” I felt powerless. I decided to take a shower to calm down, and if not, I will meditate to see if I can calm my anxiety brain.
Thirty-minutes later, after thinking through all the backup plans and all the implications of losing the computer for a day or a week, I sat in my chair and tried to meditate but I can’t. So, I gave up and turn on the podcast. Today, I decided to check out the Getting Things Done (GTD) podcast.
In the podcast, Mr. Allen, the founder of the GTD was talking about the fundamental principle of GTD. He said:
“GTD is to pay attention to the behaviors that get us on the right track…… What makes for the better day than the others?”
I sat there and started to think about this morning. I realized that, as much as I went through some panic mode, I wasn’t completely lost it as I would be five years ago. Evidence? I started to focus on what I can do instead of staying the panic mode.
So, what’s different? What behaviors got me on the right track?

Five years ago, I would have completely lost my control over my emotions and started to pace around in the house. I remembered how I used to need to have all the control to have my day went as I planned. If anything went wrong, I would go into a panic mode and unable to calm me down.
So, what’s different?
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